WHO AM I?

I still wonder my identity for ages and yet to conclude an appropriate answer. WHO AM I?....An introduction into who I am as a individual with emotions and feelings is a hard one to make. Now I am about 25 and I am a student, a son, a brother, a friend, a tutor etc. But this classification is prevailing when I am considering me as an individual and society. Is this the right path to find one’s identity?.  Many a times I wish I could figure out my place in my family, my group of friends, my school, my colleges and wherever I had been to. I hope I may find my place in this world. But all I have got is the satisfaction when the people around me admire and consider me among them.

Am I an individual?. An individual is a person separate from other persons and possessing his or her own needs or goals. Each individual is attached other and has emotions and feelings. I do have emotions and feelings but I still wonder why we cry when we are sad and why we smile when happy.

As a child I searched many scriptures for my real identity. Some say all is a part of paramanu(atom) while others say is apart of almighty. Buddhist concept of an individual lies in anatman, or "no-self." According to anatman, the individual is really a series of interconnected processes that, working together, give the appearance of being a single, separated whole. The individual in Buddhism is understood as an interrelated part of an ever-changing, impermanent universe. Hinduism also tells the concept of soul, body, and ghost. But still it is hard to digest these stories and even many saint wasted (here I mean put their entire life) their life to find the ultimate peace (Nirvana).

I always adore my life as there is so much to see and do meanwhile I hate my life as it is bound to end. Still I waste my time sleeping most part of my life and sometime think how much of my life is wasted just by wasting time.

I don't know who I am, do you?

                                                                                      oganga